What's on my mind tonight...
Ya know, the one thing I hear from various people in various walks of life is how lonely they are... seems in today's world of "virtual communication" there is very little "face to face" communication. Unless you are part of some "inner circle", you are on your own. You can be on the fringe of the inner circle, but still not part of it. As I've said, I've heard this from multiple people across many areas of my life.
Personally, it seems that I have plenty of acquaintances. But very few friends -- Unless I make the effort, I don't speak to anyone during the week except my son and the people at the office or if I need to run errands. We are part of a very active church -- and we are involved in most of the activities. But the people there (even after three years) are mostly acquaintances.
To make matters worse, you see comments and pictures of these people that claim to be friends of yours hanging out with others -- it reminds you that you truly aren't part of the "in crowd".
Can I make more of an effort? Yeah, probably. However, after being told "not this time" so many times, you get leery of asking again. You get the idea that no one wants to hang out with you. After a while, you start to take that personally.
I see it in myself. To "fit in" somewhere you start to hang out with the "wrong crowd" - those that participate in activities you might not necessarily agree with.
As a parent, I've watched my child spend his summer pretty much alone (while I was at work at least). While his peers have spent time together -- spending the night, going to parties, going to parks, watching movies.
Is it their fault? No. Is it your fault? No. Is it my fault? No. It just is.
For a while, I thought it was just me -- maybe I was the type of person that repelled "friends". But I see the same thing in the lives of others.
Sometimes, this blog may have meaningful posts -- sometimes it's just going to be me venting-- sometimes it's just going to be rambling thoughts.... Mostly it's going to be a place for me to say what's on my mind at any given moment without posting to FB.
